Friday, September 23, 2011

I Need to Pump the Brakes On Life

Has anyone seen my sanity? Or my blood pressure levels? It seems that I have let the busyness of our life totally take over and leave me grasping for solid ground lately. So, I feel like this requires a bit of a brain dump from me today, because I've already "dumped" all of this on B too many times this week. Please bear with me!
  • Why aren't there 28 hours in each day? I feel like this would leave so much more time for things like sleeping, and checking things off of my to-do list.
  • The whole house buying process is super stressful, and has given me a bunch of anxiety recently. I have heard so many stories about things going wrong so close to settlement for other people, that I almost haven't allowed myself to be excited about our first real home.
  • Due to our impending purchase, I have been on strict money lock down this month, and I think I'm developing a "can't have it, now I want it more" complex. I am DYING for some new fall threads. Jeans? Tops? Boots? Oh well, a place to live is more important, right?! 
  • We had to postpone our anniversary trip to prepare for the above mentioned impending purchase, and I know it was the right decision, but I am pretty bummed about it. Especially with all of the stress that I've been under lately, this vacation would have come at the perfect time! 
  • We had to take Riley into the emergency vet last night after she had another bout of seriously upset stomach. I like to consider myself a rational person, but my "Momma Bear" instincts come out when I know she is really sick. Thank God B is the calm one, because I am afraid to see what I'll be like when we have actual human children. Luckily, after about two hours of non-stop sickness, an injection of fluids and some anti-nausea meds, Riley is totally on the mend and sleeping the day away.
Are you tired of hearing me complain yet? I'm sorry for the droning on on a Friday, but I had had to get all of these thoughts out somehow. I was listening to the radio yesterday, and heard a woman talk about a process she uses when the stress of life starts getting to her. She simply writes down all of the things that are bothering her on a napkin or piece of toilet paper, crumples it up and flushes it!! Now, doesn't that sound relieving?! I might be trying that this weekend. 

It's times like these that I try and make myself focus on all of the positives, because the truth is, I am one lucky lady. A wonderful man by my side, a healthy and loving family, the anticipation of a new home and the best friends a girl could ask for! God has given me so much, and I am working on praising him for that, rather than nit-picking at all of the things that are "wrong" at the moment. This is a challenge for me, but I'm still a work in progress!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! I'll be back next week with some more positive posts, promise!! 


Amanda said...

Praying for some "down time" for y'all! I hope the house hunting brings some good finds for you soon :) Hang in there girl! Glad to hear Riley is on the mend. Happy Friday!

Mere said...

Oh no! Hope you ended up having a relaxing weekend!!! And that's a good thing to do: think of all the many ways you are blessed! :)