Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Welcome to Motherhood.

I'm sitting here writing at 7AM following a restless night of tossing, turning, discomfort and what may have been a few contractions during the 3AM hour.

Being up in the middle of the night gives you plenty of time to think. And rationalize even the smallest of things. We tossed and turned, got up to use the bathroom a handful of times, and caught a super late (or early) showing of 'Love It or List It' on HGTV around four. Two friends even delivered their healthy, beautiful baby boys yesterday, so checking out the middle of the night photos of those little guys made the sleeplessness more manageable.

As B lay next to me sleeping soundlessly for most of the night, I found myself comforted, and even a little bit excited that the day we will meet our sweet boy is coming so soon. It could be today, or he could make us wait a few more weeks. Only God knows. But I sat there paying close attention to each nudge and roll that Gavin had up his sleeve. I imagined what it will be like in a few weeks to be awake at that same hour, but to have my precious boys' face to look at instead of the TV. 

Sure, being awake for no reason in the middle of the night is frustrating, and I will definitely be due for a nap in a few hours. But I am trying to enjoy the quiet moments, and document the things my body is doing to prepare for Gavin's arrival, which seems to include preparation for an infant that doesn't sleep for long stretches. Even so, I'm sure we will find a way to survive. I am ready to embrace this journey into motherhood at full speed. What a wild ride I'm sure it will be.

Welcome to motherhood.

6 comments:

Laura @ The Everyday Joys said...

It's such an exciting time...although losing sleep isn't usually something exciting, I look back at those times, especially while pregnant with Ethan, and it makes me smile. So excited for you!

Amanda said...

I'm 12 weeks as of yesterday and I am ready to have this baby! I am so anxious to see what he or she will look like that it's driving me nuts!

I can't wait to hear about the arrival of your son :)

Kelly Slater said...

So exciting! You're so close, and it will all be worth it soon! Of course, you will still be suffering from lack of sleep... but that ends eventually! :o) I can't wait to follow your journey into motherhood!

Danielle said...

I hope I can be a little encouragement for you--everyone always told me to 'enjoy sleep now because once you have the baby that will be a distant memory!' While we definitely lacked sleep when our son was first born, the quality of sleep I got when compared to the pregnancy was night and day. 2 hours of 3rd trimester sleep and 2 hours of not pregnant sleep feel COMPLETELY different. The first week was actually pretty great, the 2nd he had his nights and days confused, and by the 3rd he would sleep for 4 hours at a time...

Erin said...

So so soon!! Also you look wonderful in your 38 week update :)

Valerie Scott said...

Such an exciting time for you, I miss my bump and feeling all those amazing moves from baby. It truly is an amazing experience. Enjoy every minute of it because it really does go fast. I recently found you and your blog thru IG and I have enjoyed reading along these past couple weeks. Can't wait to hear the news of Gavin's arrival.